I’m feeling so stationary right now, like a jellyfish in a spot with no current. I can see places I would like to be, but don’t know how to get there. There are so many places to choose from – directions to aim, but I’m not drawn anywhere in particular. That seems to contradict the first statement, but it doesn’t really. The want is more of an idle curiosity than a deep desire within my core.
Coreless – maybe that’s how I’m feeling. There is a sense of shallowness in all that I am doing. It’s like that time when you try to nap and find rest, but you can’t sleep. Or you try to stay awake and read or watch a movie only to find yourself drifting off. That place is where I’m living right now.
I’m unfocused and uninterested and uninteresting!
I know there is more.
I want to want the more, but I just don’t.
Maybe tomorrow I will. Tomorrow is a new day, and this one isn’t done yet. The tide may turn. I wasn’t like this yesterday. So today, I’m going to listen to Lisa-Jo and just say that I am un-fine. You know what? It’s fine with me to let you know that.
Are you un-fine, too?