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Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Learning The Hard Way


Why can’t I seem to learn things the easy way?

Why does it seem that way for each of us?

Is there even an easy way?

This has been in the front of my mind for weeks now.  An invitation was given to join with others for a 21 day fast beginning the first of the month.  A sense of spiritual dryness seemed to be pervasive among a group of people.  This was the course of action that one writer felt was necessary and asked others to join her.  I knew I was there and thought about joining.  I prayed and considered my situation and it just didn’t seem like this was my calling right now.  Another thought kept coming to mind.  I don’t need a fast, I need a feast.  I was so weary, worn, and weak that I needed strength and nourishment.  This feast would be on God’s Word.

To say that my time spent with God had been lacking was an understatement.  Life had felt so hectic and such a struggle.  The end of my rope was so frayed that tying it into a knot was more difficult than I thought.  I resolved to start my feast on the same day as the fast.  June 1 I sent my son to daycare for the day and took a deep breath – for the first time in a long time.

Since then I have been doing an in-depth study of the book of James.  I’d bought the study book a few weeks earlier.  This was exactly what I needed.  Being quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to anger is a focus right now in my life and is making a huge difference.  God is amazing like that, isn’t He?  He knows what we need when we need it.

My question is, why did I wait this long?  I needed this a long time ago.  Why did I have to wait until things got so bad?  Why did I have to learn this the hard way?

The ill effects of time out of the Word come subtly.  They are not like fire or flood.  This works more like carbon monoxide poisoning.  It is odorless, colorless, and tasteless but will lull us to sleep with sometimes devastating results.  The cure: pure fresh oxygen.  This truly is “the air I breathe”.

One of the great things about time in God’s Word is that it develops a hunger for more time in God’s Word.  That desire we wish we had comes from jumping in and beginning to feast.
So, as I pray for others in their fast, I ask for your prayers in my feast.  If you are having your own dry spell right now, won’t you consider joining one of us or the other?  I’m really tired of having to always learn things the hard way.

6 comments:

  1. Oh! I understand what you are saying. Doing my study has been SO wonderful. It's like rain on a hot dry day. ((hugs)) Praying for your feast.

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    1. Thanks so much, Stacey. I really just needed a lot of the living bread and water. It is like rain - the kind you want to dance in because you need it as much as the ground does.

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  2. Love, love, love! There is no substitute for the Word of God is there? And what an incredibly sweet reminder for all of us. Thank you for sharing openly and honestly, Amy! May God bless your faithfulness. Love you!

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    1. Thank you for your encouragement.

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  3. I so loved your thoughts on feasting... and I think that is what the purpose of fasting is, to replace it with prayer. I've been struggling with it over the last few days, but the time I spend in God's Word has been so encouraging! I'm just gonna keep at it, and remind myself that it takes time to develop a habit! I'm always looking for an "easy button"! Thankful for the reminder of pure oxygen that is so needed! :)
    Reading the The Valley of Vision (a book of puritan prayers) has been incredible for me as well!

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    1. I've been thinking and praying for you all during the fast. I think some amazing things are happening. I can see the fruit of it here already. Praise God!!

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